Thursday, September 29, 2011

bad day...

I'm not really sure why...

Had a lovely week up to today, then all went a bit wrong today.

A combination of my feeling a little run down, not sure if im coming down with something - can't imagine that i am as i've only just recovered from a cold and i've been eating so well lately and also taking a multi vitamin.  But did wake yesterday with allergu issues, so popped an allergy pill - Miles hunted through the kitchen drawer and found a pack of Nurofen i think they were, and brought them to me as he knows when i get bad with my allergies i pop a pill - an allergy pill though but i guess at 4 yrs of age, a pill is a pill.. so sweet of him.

Anyway, it really zaps my energy when i have allergy issues, so last night i started to feel like crap and went for an early night.  apparently Greta woke but i was in such a deep sleep that Jonathan got up to her and just plonked her in bed next to me and went and crawled in the spare room..so i woke at 6.30am this morning with Greta saying 'hi mummy' i was like WHAT THE .., how'd  you get in here lol!

So anyway, had a couple of plans today but still felt zapped of energy.. it all just seemed to go downhill.

Thought id try and get on top of a couple of bills, rang them to arrange to pay but would only speak to the account holder - Jonathan. Called him to ask him to call them and arrane to pay but ended up having a silly screaming match..

Greta decided not to have a nap today so literally scremed the entire day away, then finally late this afternoon she looked so tired so i put her in her cot and was hoping for  a nap from her but for some un-known reason, Miles decided to go into her room and talk to her!!

So i snapped at Miles which i petty much never do as he is the the most kindest gentlest child i have ever had the pleasure of knowing and feel like crap for snapping at him - i swear the kid's only aim in life is to please other people, he is such an absolute pleasure - he thought he was doing good by going to see Greta as she hadnt settled and i snapped at him.. such a crappy Mum!

Anyway got Greta up and she screamed a lot, then when i finally got her to stop clinging for 5 minutes she picked up a crayon and drew all over the couch, then all over the table, then stuck stickers all over the leather couch...

I started to do a craft activity with Miles, after less than 5 seconds he gets bored and says ok ive done lets do something different - he seems to have the attention span of a gnat! no kidding, it had taken me ages to set up and its still hanging on the washing line drying... honeslty he pesters to do some craft, i set it up for her and 5 seconds later he is up and leaving the table as he is bored.. i give up! 

Went to the shops for a crat activity they had there and ended up getting there at the wrong time so had to go back 2 hours later when it was on.

Nothing major just 5 or 6 little things that have all added up to a crappy day and me getting cross and snapping at the kids cos Greta was over tired and Miles woke her - just a crappy crappy day.

All made worse by the fact that Jonathan is out of the house by 6.30am and doesn't get home of an evening till ..well its 8.30pm and he's not home and hasn't even left the office yet, so will be well after 9.30pm that he's home and thats pretty normal.

SO single parent mode and i've litereally not seen another human being all week, well except shop keepers etc.. no one to talk to, so it gets lonely, i have no family or anyone for a break - the only break i get is if i pay  a babysitter to look after the kids for a couple of hours...

i dont know, just a bad day.. feeling lonely today - counting down the months till the in-laws arrive.. 3 whole weeks of company for me!

it's hard some times.  I know living here is best for the kids, i know that, i know i want to give them the best start and i know this is the place to do that - but i still have huge pangs of homesickness... not even that, i just get lonely. 

i love Playgroups and things like that as the kids can play with thier friends there so its an hour off from me having to entertain them - and i really do like to do stuff with them and entertain them.. and play and paint and dance and do silly stuff but they do look at me to come up with stuff to entertain them constantly - cos i guess they only have me.

So Playgroup is great as there are other toys to play with and activities set up for them to play with and thats great - and i can chat to the other mums, have some company for an hour or so a couple times a week... i crave that. 

But when its school holidays, i see no one for weeks on end... or however the holidays go on for, and its lonely...

also i feel crap cos ive lost 5.5kg's the past 3 weeks and im so proud but today i ate half a pack of biscuits and i've done zero walking this week so im really anxious about that, i feel like im desperate to walk and burn some fat off and its been raining and its not fit into the day and its in the back of my mind all the time and its getting to me....

SO anyway.. thats it really. 

Hope for a better day tomorrow - i don't often feel so down.. a few things have gotten to me recently, and its all just got on top of me today i guess, silly little things im trying to shrug off - an old Mums group ' friend' ignoring me and inviting all the others out but me and a couple of other silly little things im trying not to let bother me.. but they do.. i had no idea they didnt like me but its been made clear lately- and its upsetting however much i try and ignore it...

What can you do..

Stick youself in single parent mode, smile and pretend all's well and get on with it!

So i'll get on with and hopefully be in a better mood tomorrow.

x

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

its taken a while...

To got onto this site, or any for that matter, my laptop is having a benny, i've no idea why (hmmm, perhaps too English a phrase - ' to have a 'benny' means to throw a tantrum btw)..

It takes more than an hour to open a website.. then it wont load the photo's.. i have some from this past week i wanted to upload, see how i go.

My iPhone is also being weird and wont open stuff at all or hangs for an eternity.. not sure whats going on, need to get the Hubby to check it out for me i think.

Well 4 days till my princess turns 2 ARGHHHHH.. how time flies.... when you have a stroppy little madam to deal with lol.. gosh no, the world would be so less funny (if thats even correct English??) without her and i reckon we all need a little feisty pants in our life - my little firecracker :)

No plans, just cake and a little tea party at home.  i know Miles had the party with his friends and also a trip to the zoo with his friends but i recall when he was 2 yrs old and i took him to the park with his friends and he cried and just wanted it to be the 2 of us there and was only happy when the others had gone home - so i thought im not making that same mistake again.. now at 4yrs he really does love hanging out with his friends but not untill about this last birthday really.. so just gonna do the small family thing this year and probably next too. 

She's kinda born in the school hols too so every year she gets to miss out on the cake at Playgroup and Pre-school when she starts too.. poor luv.

So anyway, yesterday i wrote down a plan of fun things to do in the school holidays to entertain the kids - i know neither go to shcool yet but we have lots of activities that occupy us like Playgroup and story time etc so i thought id have a scout around and see whats on for free to entertain them and found some cool stuff so yesterday i sat and wrote a list of fun things for this week..

So far we have had:

Monday: boring stay home day as we had some one come over around lunch time so couldnt go out.
Tuesday: Drove up the Terrigal and had a cupcake and a play on the beach..

Wednesday: we did the food shop - boring for kids i know, but i then took them to IKEA (Miles LOVES Ikea) for a wander around the kids section and then for meatballs and mash potatoes  - yummmm. then down to the little play area there that they both love.

Thursday:  We are going up to the shopping centre as they have an Alice in Wonderland Maze .. looks like great fun, you can wander through the maze they have made and chat to the mad hatter etc..
Then baking some biccies in the afternoon.

Friday: the local shops have a craft day with free arts and crafts for the kids, making maracas i think it is... plus a free little toy, so they can both have a go with that and get a little toy each.
Then come home and ive got a little craft idea for home... a little hand puppet i want to have a go of making i saw on a craft website.

Saturday is baking Greta's birthday cake and Sunday is the birthday girls day...

then next week, no plans as yet but i want a trip to the Museum in Sydney, it was so cheap last time and both kids loved it.. they also enjoy going into the city on the train and seeing Daddy for a quick cuddle.
Have a few more home craft/paiting ideas and also a trip to the kids theatre, with a couple of neighbours and their kids, that should be good fun.. also wanted to go see the Gruffalo at the Opera house and we have tickets for justine Clarke for next weekend.. so quite  a bit to entertain us and also a trip to the beach.

Its kinda nice having this spare time with no activities on as we can do lots of other fun stuff like the museums and the beach that we run out of time to do during the school term.

Ok thats about all. Have to go and unpack the shopping, its still all in bags..

Oh in other news, i started doing a bit of walking about 3 weeks ago, just too and from Playgroup and too and from Pre-school and stopped eating as much as i was and i've lost 5.5kg's in 3 weeks :) so so happy with that i feel so much lighter - a heap more to go but its a great start :)

x

P.S, i gave up with the photo's - i had some nice ones from the beach yesterday but this computer is stuffed! its driving me insane!!!!!!!!!!

will try later ...

x

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

on the hunt for a new car ....again!

The car situation has come up again!

Well we started looking for a new car for me.  Jonathan was going to use his bike for work... but then decided that as my car is 5 yrs old adn really was fine after we spent a fortune on fixing it after it crapped itself!

Well now it seems jonathan needs a car for work, he has won some work all over the place from the gong up to the Central Coast - so can't really be rinding all over with clients on the back of his bike! So he needs a car, he has been taking the Jeep on the odd day i don't need it, but then im left withouht a car and its just a pain really.. so anyway.  he needs a car, so we were going to get him a car and leave me with my Jeep - then the damn thing crapped itself again! The 'check engine light' keeps coming on - anyway after a few conversations we have decided to just get us both a new car. 
We were unsure what to get but as i have had 2 Jeeps now it just makes sense to go for another and they have come down in price since we got our current one 5 yrs ago.

So yep i think we will go with that..  So i've booked in the kids nanny to look after them in a couple of weekends time and we are off to test drive.

Least i know what i want now, just a bog standard Jeep Cherokee.  And Jonathan has narrowed it down to 2 cars he is interested in.  The place we are going to in Miranda has them both so thats good, we can test drive them both.

So more money to outlay that we cant afford but, i think in the long run it will save us money as we will have to spend a fortune on the engine fault and also the air con isn't working - that will be a nightmare over summer and cost thousands to fix.  SO chaper in the long run.

In other news. 

Play group today..

Went into the city on Monday to the Museum with the kids..


Just recovering from a cold also, that Greta picked up and Miles seems a little sick today, unsure if its from the 4 yr needles he had yesterday or from the cold i passed onto him im not sure.

Also counting down to the long weekend.  Its also Greta's 2nd birthday then too but Jonathan gets the Monday off!

He's not had a single day off since Feb when he took 2 days off to come away with the kids and me and my parents.. Im desperate for a holiday!  So counting down till Jan for our weeks holiday!  Jonathan will take a week off too.. the first in a while!  Well he's taking a week off at Christmas but we will just stay home - boring... need a holiday, can't afford one :(  Roll on our Jan trip with the in-laws.

Only other thing going on is Greta has started potty training so see how we go with that..

So we have Justine concert coming up at the Opera House and tinking of booking tickets to the see the Gruffalo there too next week. 

Oh and took Miles to see the Smurfs.. Miles loved it.

Ok thats all.  Must get on. 

x

Thursday, September 15, 2011

We have an air con unit fitted!!!!!!!!!

That is all :)

x

Money woes!

again!!

This time we have to pay $1000 each for each of the kids to secure their places at the Pre-school (miles for next yr Greta for 2013).

then we have another air con unit to buy at $350 and we have one due to be fitted tomorrow for $500..

You just get straight and then are hit with all these bills again.. and on top of all this i need to save a couple of grand for our holiday in Jan next yr!

Anyway in other news, i went to the park with the kids and a couple of friends today, Miles had a great time riding around with his friends on their bikes.

Then Miles' 4yr check up and he had his hearing and eyes tested, and that was all good, oh she said he will most likely always be little as he has small bone structure, so he's always been around the 5th - 25th percetile but has recently had a huge growth spurt and is now around the 40th for height and weight, but she reckons he will most likely go back down and will probably always be on the short and skinny side, my lil' pocket rocket :)
Greta is the same, she's quite short too, i guess its in the genes, both sides of our families have both really tall over 6 feet memerbers and really short, just scraping 5 feet members so i guess you have to go one way or the other.
He's totally healthy though so all good, had to draw a circle and a straight line and a person and a few other bits and bobs, count to 10 and all that..

I booked Greta in for her 2 yr check while im there..

We did the weekly grocery shop and re-newed the library books. 

Then went to lunch at the shopping centre and collected Greta's birthday pressie that i had lay-by'd for her.  Just a little cot for her doll and a little high chair for her doll too and went to the ABC store and attempted to buy her a big Hoot (from giggle and hoot) but she didnt want it, wanted the small one, so i got her that one and that should do her for her birthday.  Might get her a couple of bracelets, she loves them and ive broken a couple recently (bad mummy!).. that should do her.

So other than that a good day.  They had a ball as the park and miles is getting so good on his bike.  And when we got home i paid some bills while Miles played with some toys in his playroom.  Then when Greta got up, we put some music on the iPhone and danced around the loungeroom :) it was such fun.

Then too them to bed and sat them both in Miles' bed while i read them a story.. lovely day.

Meant to be getting the air con installed tomorrow.. and its Miles' pre school day too. 

Thats about all.

x

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Sick

I've just picked up a crappy cold :(

Started yesterday really, I was at Playgroup and felt crap so left after an hour.. I let the kids have morning tea there and do the craft, which was just stamping, nothing exciting.. So I left early and came home. Put Greta to bed and flopped on the couch and snuggled with Miles.

I felt a little better in the afternoon and after I got Greta up I made meatballs for dinner with Miles' help.

Jonathan didn't get home till about 10pm, I was in bed fast asleep... He woke me to say hello and brought me some water :)

He really needs to employ a couple of people to help him, he has so much work on. He's got a PA now and another PM but needs another PM really - he's snowed under, which is just fantastic! But means he's leaving at 6.55am and isn't home till after 8pm most nights.. Long days. Normally fine but when I'm sick, of course we gave no family here so no help.

Anyway, today I woke feeling rather crap :(. So I'm in crap Mum mode today.. I handed the kids a sheet of stickers each this morning and a price of paper each and that entertained then for an hour.

Then cuddles with Mummy for an hour. Greta had her nap and Miles watched TV. In the afternoon I've just opened the door as it's a lovely 26 degrees today and they are actually having a ball playing outside. I'm just sitting in the shade. They have lots to play with.. 2 cubbyhole houses, a sand table, roller coaster, a slide and a trampoline I actually laid on the trampoline for about 2 hours with my book while Greta and Miles had a ball jumping about. Now Greta is playing with the kitchen in the cubbyhole house and Miles.. Well he's hanging around me, he's never been able to just play and entertain himself bless him.. Which is not hood when I'm sick and have no energy..

So I guess not too bad really, but I'm just used to doing activities and groups outside of home and at home lots of fun craft and things.. And I've litteralt been laying on the couch all day and they've been playing with stickers and then I've sat in the chair and they've played outside. But I guess it's just once in a blue moon, I never normally sit at all during the day it's usually go go go with entertaining them and activities like Playgroups and classes and story time and playmates... So I probably shouldn't be too hard on myself.

I must have known I was getting sick. On Monday I suddenly decided to scrub the house from top to bottom, took about 4 hours but it shines now.. Thank goodness as I won't be doing much this week!

And i have a few bits to do too, I have to collect the lay by for Greta for her birthday and I have to do the weekly shop tomorrow.. Will just have a rest day tomorrow and will have to get back to it tomorrow.

I think Greta has really enjoyed her longing day .. Shed been playing in her cubbyhole house for about half an hour and I hear giggling :)

She keeps asking Miles to play with her but he's not good at playing and entertaining himself, he needs an activity set for him and someone to sit and watch him do it. But not Greta, she can just entertain herself.

Anyway. Best get back to relaxing

X..

Sunday, September 4, 2011

Spring has sprung!

And to mark the start of it, we have done a few little Spring craft projects.


We planted some sunflower seeds in a little cup, decorated the cup first and then we made a little flower.. Miles loved doing that.

Then while i was getting lunch ready he sat at the bench and made and decorated a few more cups. 

Its a glorious day here, spring has certainly sprung today :)

Now to get on to the pool company to come out and uncover our pool and give it a good clean - goodness knows what lurking under there!

x

Fathers Day 2011

Was lovely.

Daddy opened his presents that the kids had made and the we went to Manly for lunch..and an ice cream of course.

Some pics of the day.

Miles painting the box we got for Daddy, we thought he could use it to keep is collection of cufflinks that he has strewn throughout the house!


A keyring Miles made along with the bookmark i cut out for Greta and she coloured in.




A card that they coloured in each - Miles wrote his name inside his :)


And a couple of pics from lunch out in Manly.




And a funny faved one!


In other news, i am re-selling my pram.  The couple who won it decided they didn't want it!! so ive had to re-list it.  So hopefully that will go for $300 - $400 again.

Felt quite crappy yesterday, ended up going to bed at 7.30pm, watching Dr Who in bed and then switching the TV off at 8.30pm and fell straight to sleep, only to wake up at 1am with the most terrible headache - a migraine i guess, anyway i sat up and had a wave of nausea hit, so i lay back down but couldn't sleep as it was so bad - now i hate taking pills but i was in agony so i got up and went and kind of blindly stumbled around to the bathroom to get panadol out of the cupboard - we dont have anything stronger in the house, i just never really take pain killers - anyway i had 2 and got back into bed, probably took them 20 mins or so to work.. so was only awake for an hour or so in total.  from 1 till 2am.. then i went back to sleep and the next thing i know its 8.45am! Fantastic! Jonathan got up to the kids, well Greta didn't wake till after 8am but Miles was up at 6.30am..

So felt great today, felt tired most of last week but repaid the sleep debt this weekend :)

Ok all for now.

Music class tomorrow.

x