i got the job!! Oficially this time haha

SO i just got the call to officially offer me the job :) wanted me to start on Tuesday next week so of course i said i cant i need to get the kid sorted so agreed to start 14th December, do 2 weeks then they close for the following 2 weeks over Christmas.  So got to get the kids sorted in day care and the nanny on the friday - oh its 3 days a week.  So the kids will go to day care together on tuesday and thursday and they will have a nanny (a friend who is a qualified nanny) on the Friday come over and look after them at our house.  jonathan finishes early on the Friday so will be home with them for the latter part of the day.
I know Greta has seperation anxiety but i kinda think she will be ok when she gets used to it as she is a lot 'better' for want of a better word, she isnt as clingy and will wander off on her own which Miles has never ever done and it kinda helps Miles too as he goes after her and feels secure as she is with him and he can stray further from mummy with Greta so it does him good - but of course im still stressing that im going to harm Miles in some way by leaving him at day care 2 days a week when i think she should be at home with me, but then i don't know if that makes him worse - so anyway we will see how we go i guess, its nothing i cant undo - if it doesnt work out i can always leave work again.

In other news - We went to the shops today to get Miles a gift as he did so well at swimming - jonathan took him so i thing his anxiety kicks in when im there maily.. anyway j has decided to take him for the next couple weeks then see if we can re-introduce me taking him!

So we went to the shops and i got a few Christmas gifts for the kids and Miles chose a Jessie from Toy story - he LOVES toy story so loves that.  Got a little peoples fairy dolls house thing for Greta and a hot pink trike! Oh and another doll as she only has like 5 already haha!

A couple gifts for Miles arrived in the mail from family members for Christmas.

Then went to a play centre as Miles BEGGED to go so couldnt refuse - had a ball with Greta rolling all over the place and Greta was practicing her standing - very proud of lil' girl :)

A piccie of them rolling around together - they have such a lovely time playing together .. im glad they can go to day are together.

the old lady next door just stood on her drive and watched me reverse out - in the rain with her brolly up! and pointed at something, presume id run over something or whatever but no idea... silly ! its my drive anyway - annoying..'

Ok best go cook the stirfry for dinner.

x

Things for this week.

 A bit late this week as i've already done some of them but here we go:

Monday - Music class /  Visiting Santa at Castle Towers
Tuesday - No plans as yet
Wednesday - Miles' Swimming class (God help us!!!) / Playgroup  / Food shopping
Thursday - No plans yet
Friday - Miles pre-shcool in the morning (me and Greta home - housework) / Jonathans Library grand opening in Sydney.. taking the kids to see it as there is story time and face painting and to support Jonathan also as its his building that he has built..
Saturday - Carols by Candlelight at Bella /Vista at 4.30pm.

So thats the plan for this week.

Might change as ever!

Music class was good today.. Miles enjoyed it and joined it. 

Just waiting on Greta having a nap now then when she wakes up we will go see Santa at the local shopping centre.  I was going to book in for Breakfast with Santa at the local RSL but i thought it was $18 per child, which i balked at anyway as Greta cant even stand up never mind walk so will not even care or get involved but not only do i have to pay for her i also have to pay for J and I too so sod that idea! We are going to Carols by candlelight on Saturday so we will see Santa there im sure.

In other news, waiting on confirmation that i got my job! pretty please ring soon and put me out of my waiting misery!!

All for now

x

WOW - this day keeps getting better

Tonight Greta crawled along the lounge and pulled to stand against it! I almost fell over i was so in shock.. 4 days before she turned 14 months, i thought we would never get there i was thrilled!  Miles had taken his first steps by this age but Greta hasnt even been able to bare weight on her legs so im so happy :)

Fantastic weekend :)

x

Miles' Concert

OMG i have cuteness overload!  So we went in the school hall and sat there watching the kids go up onm stage and then it was Miles turn - he went up to his teacher, got dressed up as a bumble bee and went up on stage with his classmates and danced and sang his heart out - i am SO SO SO proud of him!  He LOVED it, kept asking when it was his turn.. so fantastic.a couple of very proud Mamam photos.
(he;s the one on the far right in the grey t-shirt)

Its raining!

But it was so so hot yeserday so its kinda nice that its a little cooler today.

Had a lovely day yesterday, a friend from Playgorup as if we fancied going to the park with them so off we went - Miles had a ball with her 2 daughters, but prefers playing with her 5yr old rather than her 3yr old which is interesting as he is 3 too... but think he has an odl head on his shoulders! He is 3 going on 30 and Greta is 1 going on 9 months lol.

Then hung out in the pool later on and popped up to the shops and got a couple free gifts for Miles - he's a member of the local shops kid club and quarterly they send out gift coupons and all the members get free books from the book store or a free cup cake from the patisserie etc etc... so yesterday we got some free santa stickers that he loves and i think next week we get a free book about  aPolar Bear - its a preetty worth while club.

Then had a BBQ for dinner.  I LOVE that i no longer have to cook food up just for Greta - i have never in my life given either of my kids a baby food jar or sachet or whatever form they come in and am very proud of that - everything they have ever eaten is what i have cooked for them.  but standing in the kitchen every sunday and having a major cook off for all the meals and fruits etc that i need to make to fill my freezer for the coming week was hard work and im so glad when each of my kids turned 1yr old and i no longer had to cook baby food for them and freeze it in portion sizes - although it was only for 6 months for each child that i had to do it - and as i said i am very proud of myself that i alwys did.. it was still a lot of work, although fun to come up with new meal ideas for them and i think i worked my way through at least 2 baby food cook books.. but still as soon as they turn that magic 12 months  - no more cooking of baby food :)
Now of course they just eat what we eat every meal times.  I do still have a couple of things in the freezer though, just in case Jonathan and i decide to have a take away one night or i'm not feeling well and don't have the energy to cook, that sort of thing.   So if we are having a lasagne or something or a spag bol i will stick a portion in a container for the kids and freeze it then i have something to pull out on the freezer on one of these occasions.  But its not baby food i cook anymore of course as now they are meant to (so im told by the health nurse and im sure they know what they are talking about) eat the same meals as us adults. Sometimes there are slight modifications, like tonight we are having a homemade curry and rice, now the curry will be too hot for the kids, so they will have the rice but i will do them a can of beans or something simple like that - i dont want to cook 2 meals and i think its very important that we all sit down as a family and all eat the same meal now - dont want fussy eaters and also think its improtant to teach table manners etc and well its just good to all sit together as a family and enjoy a meal - the same meal, together. But curry is too hot for them and in time of course they will eat it, but not just yet, so instead of making something different for them i will simply give them the rice and a can of beans with it.

Then the kids were in bed and asleep by 7pm so J and i sat and watched Knight & Day and it was ok, J had ants in his pants and struggled to sit still and watch it and of course didn't enjoy it which i knew he wouldnt, just cos he hates watching Tv or Movies - but i kinda liked it.  it was silly and fun,. a but like Mr & Mrs Smith a but spy/tounge in cheek.

Kids played together so at the moment its lovely - some piccies.

Cant wait to see them grow together, they are really having fun together and playing well and chasing each other around the house.. be great when Greta can walk and they can run around outside in the back yard together..speaking of walking, Greta actuall attempted to stand yesterday!!!!! I was laying on the floor with the kids and she crawled over to me and knelt up beside me and then pulled and tugged on my top and eventually she was up on her feet but resting heavily on her tummy , so most of the weight was on her tummy - but still its the first time she had attempted to get onto her feet, she usually jut kneels up to things.  Her muscle tone in her legs are no where near what they should be for her age but im trying to get her bare weight on her legs while i hold her  - not easy as she just wants to fold her legs up under herslef bless her.. she is still all cureld up like a newborn.. she's adorable.  'We're getting there though.

So that was yesterday. 

Today we are heading to Miles' Music class concert.  Not sure if he will get up on stage with the other kids in his class, im pretty sure he wont but still we can go along and see if he wants to and if not then we can sit and watch the others on stage - be cute if he did though.  Will be back later with an update - im pretty sure if i stood on stage that he'd be fine, but as im meant to be in the audience watching and not with him im sure he wont do it. we shall see though.

BBL

x

Wonders never cease!

Dropped Miles at day care this morning and he was quite happy to go! Amazing... he trotted in and stood in line to have one of the carers smear him in sunscreen, then trotted off to the sandpit with another little girl :) one very happy mummy.

So im just waiting for Greta to drop off to sleep and then i can get stuck into cleaning this dump of a house up - well its a beautiful house but its ferral!

Then waiting for confirmation that i did get the job and arrange starting date and salery etc :)

Oh and Greta has discovered the on/off switch on the Foxtel box!  Its driving Milles INSANE! lol too cute - she's also just found where the card is and has ben wiggling that all morning too.  I can't tell her off, i said a very loud and firm 'NO' to her a month or 2 ago and her little bottom lip quivered and tears stremed down her face - broke my heart.  jonathan had the same happened to him once too so now neither of us can tell her off lol how weak are we! We're like mush where she is concerned!  Besides i think she is too little to understand discipline just yet, she thinks its a game still..

x

i got the job!!

Well subject to references and now of course im panicked cos im afraid my references are going to be bad - im just so negative abotu myself it drives me mad!  Anyway the guy said he would get back to me today to confirm the references were ok but he hasnt got back to me so of course im worried about that! But it was offerred to me so i guess that means i have it - doesnt it!

Anyway other than that we went to the zoo with 2 friends and their kids today - a selection of snaps from that are below - it was so great i loved it.  Really looking forward to going again - and it was free as one of my friends had a guest pass so all i sepnt all day was $8 on a sandwhich! winner!

Ok so Miles, Alannah, Niamh and Tagdh - Miles and Greta too of course.

We're going to the zoo !!

Very excited we havent been since ... well i can't remember, since Greta was about 2 months old i think - Christmas last year.  So we are going Fre and her little ones and another friend and  her little girl. So glad, need to get out of the house and have some adult company! 
My heads not been right this week - wonder if its the stress of the 3rd interview i had lined up for yesterday, now thats done i seem like a weight has lifted..Should hear back if i got the job or not by the weekend.  I think the first guy liked me, then i met the MD and the financial manager and they liked me, then yesterday i met the accounts lady and the GM - who i would be working with, but not sure what they thought so a little worried i migh tnot get it - but at the same time worried i will as i dread leaving mainly Greta as she is so tiny still but we need more income so i hope i get it for that! So im torn as you can see...see what happens, i just hope i hear before the end of Friday, i dont fancy waiting all weekend to hear on Monday - i cant take the stress haha!

Well just waiting on Greta waking, then heading to the zoo - just doing a little on-line sopping at the moment, got a gorgeous wooden cake stand for Greta.

x

todays news

SO swimming was same as every, Miles screamed the entire 30 minutes.  I just got him out of the water and the end of the lesson and didn't say anything, i just wrapped him in a towel and said ok lets get you dressed and we can go to Playgroup - he loves playgroup and playing with all his little friends there - so i think thats the way to go.  Im not sure he can control his screaming so telling him not to be silly and its silly to scream is kinda pointless if he is so anxious about being parted from me that he cant actually contol it.  So instead im going for the silent approach - i explain to him before the class that Mummy will sit beside the pool and he will be in the pool with the teacher and i will right there the whole time and not to be afraid as i will never leave - so he has that solid base to come back to but he just gets so stessed at not being held by me at all times.  We will see how we go with this new approach.

Then onto Playgroup and he had a ball in the sandpit with the other kids and chatted and played with them :) so thats lovely to see he has started to want to play with other kids i guess he is at that age where they transition fron side by side play to wanting to play together so he's at an age now where he is wanting to play with other kdis and its lovely to see. so he played with Patrick and Chelsea a couple of the other kids there - they dug sandcastles and filled up water buckets.

i was on Mums tea so baked a yummy lemon sponge cake. 

Greta missed her morning nap as she always does on a Wednesday so was quite upset and wouldnt let me put her down, but thats ok i got lots of extra snuggles - goodness knows how i will go if i get a job, even Jonatan cant hold her she goes crazy..

Oh and then i went for my 3rd and final interview - really fancy the role so see how i go, they will get back to me before the weekend ive been told so see how that plays out.  ive said i can only do tuesday and Thursday and a half day on Friday.  So id be working 2.5 days a week (20 hours) for $30,000 so thats not too bad i guess.. Its not in the city either, if it were it'd pay more, its 15 min drive from home so i cant grumble at that.
and parking too of course.

Anyway will hear back by the weekend if they want me to take on the role or if they want someone else - its a procurement/accounts role - well same as i've always done really..studied accounts at college - gosh that was many moons ago now.

Anyway will update once i know.  I couldnt pick it i was 50/50 as to whether they liked me or not and the market is so hard at the moment it seems everyone is looking for a job so many many people going for the same role where as 5yrs ago there was a lot less people looking.. so its a bit more of a fight to sell yourself to get a role - anyway waffling.. will see how the week plays out i guess.

Then came home and it was so hot i jumped in the pool with Greta and Miles while Jonathan took a million zillion calls from work - he had come home early so i could go to the interview and he watched the kids.. so we had a swim and Miles was great - he swims so well - wish he'd do the same at swim class but will only 'perform' if im in the pool - wont even swim to Jonathan!

Greta looked so cute, she had her hot pink swimming cozy on with ruffles around the bum and her hair in a ponytail, its so long now it will go in a ponytail or pigtails - too cute.

Then i went shopping as we had no milk or nappies, i cooked dinner first - whipped  up a spag bol quickly and then popped out with instrucions for Jonathan to feed the kids and id be home in half an hour.. came home to find he'd fed the kids ALL the spag bol! half a kilo or mince meat he has shared between the 2 kids! needless to say they didnt eat anywhere near all of it so he had finished their meals for them! When i told him it was actually for ALL 4 OF US he said Ahhhh i thought there was too much for the kids! Well DOH!!! So now im hungry as i had no dinner! 

Anyway off to the zoo with Fre and the kids tomorrow - cant wait, Miles has been nagging to see Niamh all week - young love!

Gonna watch 8 boys and wanting a girl tonight on Lifestyle You.. looks interesting, the lengths some people go to to have a baby girl on this show! I cant comment as im lucky to have 1 of each but im not sure if id go to such lenghths if id have had 1 boys.. i dont know that as ive had 1 of each so cant really comment - and i do love having a girl i cant wait to go to the theatre and shopping trips with her when she's old in Melbourne and even Singapore - yeah ok so i love having a girl lol.

Ok best go have a rumage in the fridge - starving!

Pregnant!!!

Not me - Haha!!

Yet ANOTHER one of Greta's  group, i  mean its not suprising as there were a lot of first time Mummy's in the group and they are of course going for their 2nd baby, i indeed had been pregnant and lost the baby and was TTC again by the time Miles was 13 months old .. it just seems there are more than were pregnant at this stage in Miles'group - but most of them were 2nd or 3rd time Mums in Miles' group and were having their last bub.

But anyway i just found out yet another mum from the group is pregnant, just a couple of week along.. but how exciting! Im so thrilled for her as her other bubs are SO SO adorable :)

Hmmm funny, i have no desire to have another bub myself, ive kind of got past that stage and am really enjoying watching Miles and Greta interact now.  But although my baby days are over i LOVE hearing baby news and seeing all the ultrasound pics and the new born photos - but no desire to go back there.and i cant even say its cos i dont want to deal with sleepless nights as Greta slept through 10 hours when she was 1 day old and has never stopped sleeping since!!Or the trying as its never taken us more than a month or 2 to fall pregnant, or even the fact we have had 4 pregnancies and only have 2 kids, i know i'll probably have to go through a loss to get a healthy bub but its all worth it in the end even if difficult at the time.  I lost my first baby, then had Miles, then lost the 3rd baby, then had Greta...but still its not that...i just feel we are a family as 4 and are complete, plus it wouldnt be fair as my kids are so so clingy i cant split myself 3 ways, 2 is hard enough sometimes.. i think we have a great family dynamic and dont want to screw it up so im sticking not twisting :)

Jonathan says he would be happy to have a 3rd but is happy to stick to 2 if thats what i wanted - yup it is.

But anyway a  huge congrats to the lovely lady who is preggers - cnat wait till you can announce it on FB so i dont have to keep my mouth shut!

While on on the subject of babies, a few pics of my 2 as babies:

Miles

And Greta

 With Nana Edie.

Wow i'd forgotten how much hair she had, its was insane!  It was jet black too as was Miles hair - but then it all started to grow through underneath as light brown and when that had grown through the black stuff sort of vanished - same with Miles except it came through as blonde - my little blondie boy :)

x

Blurghhhhh

Not feeling great today - nothing physical just feeling crappy, like everything is to hard, i dunno just seemed like too much to do, too much housework to day, too may kids to mind, too many erands to run.. and not feeling homesick so much as lonely.. a few FB friends have their mums over visiting and im feeling lonely.. just wish i had someone to watch the kids for 5 mins while i went to the loo in peace hahha.. sounds silly i know but i just feel like i don't get a break - which i dont as we have no family or many friends over here and the only friends i do have have kids of their own so dont want mine to look after too - hmmmm ho hum i'll get over it.  Ive lost my temper FAR FAR too much with Miles today, poor kid can do nothing right - its not his fault is mummy is having a bad day. Be so glad when its Feb and my parents come for a visit.

Anyway i took Miles for a play in the pool to try and get myself out of my black mood and in seconds im giggling and having a ball - that thing has magical properties i swear, always cheers me up floating around with Miles jumping and splashing about.  Then Miles decided to swim to me and as im holding him in the middle of the pool he utters the words you NEVER want to hear from someone in a pool "Look, I did a wee wee" LOL well i almost wet myself laughing, so out we climbed and sat on the grass to dry for a while - after we had had a very good wash in the shower first! 

So we baked a couple of cakes for Playgroup tomorrow - well baked 1 for playgroup but it looked so nice i couldnt wait till tomorrow so we baked another so we could have a slice after dinner.`

Nom NomNom :)

Nanny

Totally forgot why i came in here Doh!

So im looking into going back to work and i have a 3rd and final interview for a job just 15 mins down the road ... anyway its 3 days a week and we have decided we will send the kids to the day care that Miles went to when i went back to work after i had him and before Greta was born.. he has  a major fondness for one of the carers who is from Leeds in the UK! im sure the accent just sounds familiar to him thats why Miles became atteched to her - she looked after him while I went into hospital to have Greta as i had her on a Friday and was in hospital over the weekend.. Anyway the plan for me to have the kids on a Monday, they go to day care together on Tuesday and then i have them on a Wednesday, then they go to day care on Thursday - now friday is the problem as Miles goes to Preshcool on a Friday just over the road from us and he goes with Fre's little girl who he has known since he was 9 days old - so ive no plan to change that, the preschool is literally 3 minutes from our house and he will get to know probably most of the kids who go there in our area and make friends for school so i dont want to mess with that as he LOVED it there and i dont want to take him out and stick him in day care for a 3rd day as i think 3 days a week day care is way too much for them both..so that leaves me with Greta on the Friday - i need to find something/somewhere for her to go - again dont want to send her to day care for a 3rd day or on her own ..anyway i went out to dinner with some friends on Friday night ( to the BEST Thai restaurant i have ever eaten at) and one of my friends just happens to be a fully qualified Nanny, she has a baby around the same age as Greta - Heidi and went to the school that we both now have out babies signed up for for high school (Pymble Ladies College) So she sends me an SMS today saying she has been thinking about it and is free on a Friday as she looks after some other kids on other days during the week but would be happy to watch Greta for us - winner!

So all problems sorted and Greta of course knows her and Heidi so that would be good.

So see if i get the job now i guess - fingers crossed.

x

yep, another post!

I'm becoming quite addicted to this blog haha, which is good as i get a lot of crap off my chest.  Its kinda like having a best friend to hand all the time when i want to chat .. although im pretty sure no one reads it, still its great to keep a record of my goings on with the kids - something to llok back on and remember i guess.  Wish id have done in 3 yrs ago when i had Miles then i could see how i was feeling etc then.. but no matter im doing it now, so can see what we get up to now.

BTW i have X'factor on in the backgorund - a show i pretty much never watch but confess i have a mini crush on James Blunt who is appearing on tonight, I have a huge soft spot for toffee nosed brits who were raised with a silver spoon in their preverbial gobs lol... hmmmmm im kinda seeing what i see in my husband now! Anyway he has really buffed up, he was so skinny and geeky but is looking pretty hot hot hot now!

Of course Jonathan is in a differnt room haha, i switched the TV on and he decided he was going for a potter around the house - hates TV its sweet bless him.

So kids are in bed, i red 3 books to Miles and he was falling asleep on the last one - then he requested one called Waggs the Dog, a Wiggles book but i couldnt find it so i sat on his bed and read it off the top of my head - how funny is that, i must have read it so many times i know it off by heart lol.

A day at the beach tomorrow i think.

All for now, have to go search for my glasses, i cant see a thing im as blind as a bad and want to watch Altiyan on X-Factor - he is the best!

x

Had to share...

... the 2 beautiful dresses that arrived in the mail.  One from Next in the UK and the other from Mothercare in the UK - beautiful....both for my little princess of course :)

Ok now best be off to run the pricesses - and princes bath lol!

x

Grabbing 5 mins peace..

Well i was trying to, ive fed the kids dinner and was just letting them have a play for 10 mins in their newly cleared out playroom before i bath them (J is working late).. and thought id quickly update on here about my day but both kids have just found me - ahhhh sometimes i crave peace and queit!

They are now chasing each other around the house both SCREAMING at the top of their lungs - my head is about to implode i swear! But its also great to see them enjoy playing together.

So we popped up the the DVD shop returned a couple of DVd's Miles had borrowed and rented him a couple more.

Then came home and had a good clear out of the playroom, making room for Christmas pressies.  Still need to clear out the toy boxes but looking good in the meantime and heaps more room.



Then i set up a craft activity for tomorrow after id cleared out the craft box.  Its going to be home Made Christmas present tags as seen on  Tiny & Little website.

Here is a picture of 1 i made to show Miles tomorrow and 1 Miles just couldnt help making himself:

x

Tonight we're going to party like its 1999....

... well thats when this photo was taken of Jonathan and I, 1999! 

Talk abotu a blast from the past  - we look so young.

AWWWWWWWWWwwwwwwww

x

Buzzy Beee!

So this weeks list of actuvities:

monday - music class
Tuesday  - trip to the beach
Wed - Swimming &  Playsgroup. (my job intoerview)
Thursday - no plans hope to catch up with Fre and the kids
Friday - Preschool for Miles and cleaing for Greta and I.
Sat - home day
Sunday - Miles'music class concert.

So we had Miles' music class today, he was great - he loved it.. takes i 5 mins of sitting on my knee wathcing the class for him to warm up but then he joins in and is great.

They practised a few songs for  a concert they are putting on on Sunday, so cant wait for that!

A picture of Miles in his concert outfit:

Awesome Weekend

And not so......

Will start with the awesome bit first.
I got a great lie in on Saturday and we decided to hang out at home - we made a plan a couple years ago that we would hang out at home one day on the weekend and do an activity the other day. So saturday we stayed home and jonathan has had an ear and sinus infection so was feeling heaps better but just a bit tired - he's never been one who needs much sleep but after struggling to sleep with his ear and sinus pain and he also sat up most of the night with Greta when she has croup for 1 night ..so he was feeling tired so off eh trotted to bed and and the kids and i decided to get out of the house for an hour so as not to disturb him.  Of we went and found a gorgeous little sectret garden cafe - i'll have to take my camera next time we go its stunning.. its litereally built as a secret garden, has a water feature in teh middle and all the tables are outside and the kitchen is inside this old old stone building that seems like an old run down cottage in the secret garden, its beautiful with vines and ivy trailing all over and best of all they have set up a kids play area in one corner so they can play there with the adults enjoy the amazing food there.  So got back from there an jonathan had just woken up.  He pottered in the garden and the kids played outside with him, i lounged around and read an entire book in one day  - bliss.  topped off by a swim in the pool and a BBQ.

Ok so then onto Sunday.  I had tickets to take Miles to the movies to see Dorothy and Santa - which id LOVED by the way, didnt want to leave when it ended, bless him.  So we went for a stroll around the shopping centre afterwards and looked at soe toys in a couple toy shops then decided to come home for lunch.
In the afrternoon id been told bya friend about a Santa Show on at a shopping centre about 20 mins from home with songs and carols by the local boys grammar school Knox and games and craft tables and hook a ducks and rides and free presents - all for free. So i said we would head out to tha after lunch.  Now Jonathan HATES doing kid type activities, his idea of fun is sittingng in ARIA or Wildfire on Darling harbour for lunch and blowing a couple hundred dollars on 1 meal! Which to be fair i also like to do but pre kids, now i like to do stuff that makes my kids happy and we can all join in - but do that kids of adult only stuff on a ngiht out once a month or so like a date nght which we used to have but cant now cos of buget issues :(

Anyway this resulted in me asking if he was going to come or not and he said i will but i really really HATE stuff liek that - so i thought whats the point i dont want him coming and spoiling the day by sulking cos he hates doing kids activities - this really winds me us as he sulks and spoils the day when we do anything he doesnt like - which is pretty much EVERYTHING! except sitting in ARIA or Wildfire for 3 hours spending hundreds on fine wine and foods which is pretty much what we used to do a lot before kids but of course cant now and we cant afford that now anyway so rather than thinking right ive got kids now i need to think what will be fun for ALL 4 of us to do he still puts himself first - now trying to explain this to him and have a discussion about it is near impossible as i get cross and tell him how annoying and self centered he is being by not joining in or behaving like a spoilt brat the times he does join in.. now Jonathan is a lover not a fighter so having a heated disscusion with him is near imposible as he wont rant and rave like i do - which i guess is good as i dont want the kids to hear us fighting, she instead he stands there in silence and instead when i finally shut up yelling at him he opens his mouth and utters one line that is usually so cutting and cruel i burst into tears and run off into the bedroom - thank God we dont fight much cos i hate crying and hardly ever do - anway this is what happened and of course he comes in and says "im so sorry you know i hate fighting and im a dirty fighter and say awful things that i dont mean but i just cant stand having an argumet so i say nasty things to shut you up" What he said was.. well i said" i wish you'd come up with ideas of how to spend the one weekend day we do an activity as it all falls on my shoulders as you hate doing any activity with the kids so it falls to me to think of something and then you hate what i come up with " then i said the line " why do i always have to be the one to think for you" to which jonathan replied " OMG if i had to let you think for me then God help me" Now anyone who knows jonathan knows the man is a genius, smarter than any human being i or anyone i know has ever know.. he was jsut born that way i guess.. had trouble at school as he was way above of his year so was put up a year and that was no good he was still top of the class so was put up another year and still no good, so they had to buy him in extra books for smart kids that they didnt have ... too easy for Mr genius! So off he went to another school for boffins!  also put up a year there and you guessed it - up another year... anyway sailed through exams with no studying, sailed through Uni with no studying - well as i said the bloke is a genius. I've often wondered how he cna stand being with me, Mrs average intelligence and doesnt he get terribly bored - but after 12 yrs together he assures me that no i totally stimulate him mentally as im a "why bird" as he calls me - im always asking him questions and thinking about stuff i want to lean about so thats good... i guess. Whenever i want to know something, do i ask Google  - nope i ask Jonathan, he knows EVERYTHING and i really mean EVERYTHING! in 12 yrs im yet to find something he doesnt know - although when he goes to answer one of my many questions he usually begins the lecture with "Ok i'll tell you but i don't know very much about this subject" then of course goes on to tell me more than someone who had studied the subject for years! I recently asked him about how the Auatralian governtmant works and parliment and how it differs from how the UK is run - so of course a couple of hours later he has told me so much about the runnings of the country (most of which ive forgotten) but i really don't think julia Gillard could have known more! And we've only lived in the country for 8yrs - where the hell did hea learn all about the inner workings of the government i have no clue - and he NEVER EVER watches TV, hates it, says it leaves him brain dead lol yeah right! so we are like the von trapp family and he plays piano or guitar for the kids who LOVE it.
Anyway back to the point - the reason being that the one line he said about relying on my brain really cut me to the core cos ive always thought id bore him and he's way outta my league and all that ... even though i see Miles very similar to his Daddy in that he will most likely go on to be a genius too, so i feel good Jonathan will have an equal. His neice is also the same way -she just did her GCSE's (Uk exams) and got in the top 5% results in the entire country... pretty good, she's in the same genius school.  Anyway there is a down side to his genius brain, that he is VERY VERY VERY messy - he cant cope with day to day chores, his damn too smart brain gets tired of it and he goes into a world of his own and then he forgets what task he is dong and gets distracted and i try to get him back but his mind has wondered after attempting to do too mundane a tast and its soon forgotton so he can go off and do some boffin task as well.. which i try to excuse and tidy up after him, honestly its like he's in a trance, if i say load the dishwasher please - his brain can seem to compute simple things like that so his mind wonders and he ends up putting shoes in the dishwasher or something!  So i uaually take over which is fine i enjoy keeping house but then there is all the extra stuff like picking up after the kids - Miles is obsesively tidy so thats all good but Jonathan and Great are ferral! realyl bad, like they will eat and leave the food aquashed into the floor - Greta is a baby so fair enough but Jonathan does it too - or eats an apple and shoves the core down the side of the lounge - gross!  and cos he doesnt watch TV eh doesnt sit in one spot staring at the TV, nope he wanders around all the time like he has ants in his pants!  So makes a mess everywhere he treads ARGGGHHHHHHH..

Anyway backtracking a bit to tell the story.  I ended up taking the kdis to the Santa show and it was FANTASTIC! we were there about 4 hours.  Got some great toys for free too.  Saw a great magic show and finally came home to jonathan and after Miles spent forever telling Daddy how good it was Jonathan then said he wished he had come and seen his kids have a lovely time an regretted not going.  No you dont say!!!So what had he done while we'd been out - vacuumed half the house - he wanted to do it all but his mind wandered half way through and he got distracted - hmmmm sounds familiar.
(while on on the subject of the Santa show a few pics from the show)

So i had this silly bursting into tears thing.. J came and said sorry blah blah blah.. than i told him to Pee off and leave me alone as i was sick of him refusing to do stuff with the kids as he gets bored and only wanting to do adult stuff they'd hate and we cant at the moment affored till i go back to work 3 days a week (im working on that) or he gets a pay rise - hopefully next yr -  so he leaves the room and 10 mins later i hear Miles' teddy bear jingle (it has  bell in tis belly) and Miles' little had pops around te bedroom door, more tears - what a little sweetie - he then spends the next hour on the bed with me reading a stack of books he'd brought with him - love my sweet gentle son :)
Then i put him to bed and red him another story and went to chat with Jonathan.  We had a great chat and i had to remain calm cos as ive said jonathan is a lover and not a fighter and will not argue, and would leave the room if i got cross and shouted (same as Miles, hes a very gentle soul like his daddy) so J said he hates doing activites with the kids and i said i hate washing your stubble out the sink every morning but i do it cos ive learnt to comprimise.  SO if we have one at home day a weekend to potter around the garden which is what J likes to do why cant he other day be all 4 of us going to do an actuvity that im afraid for the time being does have to be based around thd kids mainly becuse they are kids and cant do adult stuff and its not fair to them bore them with adult stuff every single weekend - so why can that be the comprimise and he saw it was fair and agreed.  Now how long this will last till he starts refusing to go or is so miserable while w are out on an activity that he ends up staying home alone i dont know.. but for a few weeks he should behave himself i hope!

So we agreed to go the the 'balmy ngiths' at the Rocks, which is a night market and live music and then have a meal in one of the restaurants - ive said i will put the kids down for a late nap so they stay awake till 8.30pm or so when we get them home - i could see him stressed at the thought of having to eat out with the kids - which is crazy as i eat out at lunch time with them ALL the time but Jonmathan HATES to eat out with them.. mad, they are the best behaved kids i know - which he agrees with but still he gets stessed doing things with the kids for some odd reason!  They're kids its expected they will act like kids not adults as they aren't but still he stresses !! (rolling eyes here :p ) 

So thats one thing ive been SO KEEN to do and thought id have to do it alone but hes agreed - now whether he sits and looks miserable and ruins it for us im not sure but he has promised to try!

I want to take Miles on a train into the city to see the Christmas lights - again Jonathan would HATE to sit on a train for 15 mins into the city then walk around the city with 2 kids (Miles LOVES the city - he makes up games at home about being in the city and sky scrapers out of lego - he really loves Sydney) but jonathan thinks the kids shouldnt be allowed into Sydney! hmmm whaterver! but he has agreed to try that one out too!

Other ideas include the zoo - which he will hate not because kids dont belong there as he thinks but becaue the place will be filled with kids and he sees it as a kid only place and HATES kid type activities - so as you see its a struggle, he see's 505 of things as kids activities which he HATES and he sees 50% of activites as adult style activities which he HATES taking the kdis to - so loose/loose really!

What he is GREAT at is swimming the pool with the kids, pottering around the garden with them.  just stuff at home really - but my 'office' is the home as im here all week with the kids, when J is home of a weekend i want to go and do an activity with him one day on the weekend.

Anyway a great weekend with the kids and worked out a few problems with jonathan so pretty good reall :)

x

3rd Interview!!!

Whooooo Hooooo, but now of course im looking at Greta with tears in my eyes dreading leaving her at day care/with a nanny 3 days a week! Miles goes to Pre-shool 1 day a week and i hate taking him, i wish he could stay home with me.  On the other hand ive had 15 months off work since i was made redundant when pregnant with Greta - i took Miles out of day care the 3 days a week he was there when i went back to work part time when he was 7 months old and LOVED being home with them both... but i feel ready to go back to work, im excited about the work - but at the same time im also so stressed about leaving Greta as i never ever have, not even with someone for 1 minute -she has been with my and jonathan since the day she was born, we dont have any family here so she hasnt even been to a Grandparents house or anything like that - so stressed much!

Then there is Miles, he suffers extreme seperation anxiety and anxiety in groups so day care situations is not good for him, or being away from his safety net (me).  One of the reasons we have searched for a new pre-shool for him to start in Jan, its much smaller than the day care he went to, and one of my best friends daughters goes there so they will be together, i just hope he latches onto a carer there as he adored a couple of the carers at his day care but i hope he will find that in one or 2 of the teachers at the pre-shool.  Also we are considering a nany, i think this will most likely be the way we go as i dont think either of my kids will fare well at day care 3 days a week - so have to look into that more..im lucky in that a friend of mine is a nanny so im sure she will be able to offer advise and help us find a carer.

But anyway im getting ahead of myself as i have to go through the 3rd interview yet.

i was told though that im the favourite for the position, but i got down to the final 2 of the other role and got pipped at the post!  So take is as it comes i guess.

x

harry potter fever!

So i put the kids to bed, read Dr Sues' Sam-I-Am about a milion times - then headed off to HP movie - me being me got totally lost! Parked in the wrong spot and course as the movie finished after the shopping cnetre had closed, i couldnt get back to the car! So had to walk out of the centre and all the way around to the outdoor entrance of the car park and walk up the ramp! What a twit i am!

Oh and the movie was fantastic - although it ended a bit odd, i knew it would because it was only half of the final book.

Because i was late getting in there - cos i left too late and the traffic was shocking! took me about 20 mins ot move 10 yards!! So frustrating.  So i ended up missing the first 15 mins of the movie GRRRRRRRrrrrrrrrrr... and i missed being able to sit at the bar in Gold Class and order some yummy food - i took the menu in with me but of course it was too dark to be able to read it and i didnt know how to call for the waiter anyway, or even how to make the chair work and recline and couldnt work it out in the dark!  Frustrating and felt it was a little waste of money as i couldnt experince the Gold Class part of it - but the movie was worth it!
I came home and explained all of this to jonathan who of course rolled his eyes as he knows what im like by now, i never think forwards and always get lost!! Drives him mad haha!  Anyhoo - Jonathan said how about i go to the movies Gold Class again next week, it wont be to see HP as ive already seen it of course but at least i'll get to expericence the Gold CLass experince that i missed out on - so just gotta find a movie i wanna go see.. might become a monthly thing, it was so nice to go out kiddie free i pretty much NEVER EVER am kitty free.. so its nice just for once to be me on my own - but only for an hour or 2 as any longer than that and i miss my babies, even when i know they are fast asleep and have NO CLUE that im not there - just as i like it, hate leaving my babies.

Which takes me onto the job interview i had yesterday afternoon.. i did like the look of the job but thoguht i was only a 50/50 fit, so wee if i get a 3rd interview - yes there is a 3rd interview! They want to check they get the right person.  So see how i go. I so dont want to leave the kids in day care 3 days a week but at the same time we need more income - they asked me what id do with the kids and i said they'd go into day care 3 days a week and i felt like such a bad mum, and i really dont want to put them into day care, i want to stay home with them but needs must - i just hope Jonathan can negotiate more money with his company next year then i wont have to work - if i even find a job by then which i really dont want to but i also want do at the same time as i want to help provide for my family also - so torn!

Ok best get on anway, Greta is down for her nap and i need to have a tidy, house is pretty clean as i gutted it on Friday last week and again on Tuesday but just want to vac and dust again.

x

i have a 2nd interview!

This afternoon, so see how that goes!

Took the kids up the library for story time to today - it was pretty good, they had a treasure hunt around the library and Miles found the treasure box! he was very impressed.

Greta has croup - awfull illness! She wa up half the night which is most unusual for her - jonathan was saying he can count on one hand the number of times she has woken at night since the day she was born!  Miles hasnt woken much more often but Greta does love her sleep - well as does Miles but im particular Greta  - anyway jonathan sat up with her all night, bless him, and has gone to work today too - what a trouper!

So thats about it for today.. just about to list some clothes on e-bay that the kids have outgrown.

x

Miles Update

Ok so we headed up the GP and explained the problem of Miles anxiety issues and he kinda fobbed us off - i understand what i meant he thought Miles was young and he'll grow out of it but i was the same as a kid and only grew out of it as an adult and had a miserable time as a kid because of it.

Anyway we rang the health nurse back and she has given us a number to call - there is a talk on about how to deal wiht kids whith etreme anxiety issues - but we just missed it! So waiting to find otu when the next one is on.  Its more about us learning how to react and resond to him and help himm feel less anxious than about Miles doing anything really.

god its awful i really hate that he has got this defective gene or whatever the hell it is from me and is struggling with seperation axiety and anxious in groups too - poor lil'man.  I must admit i didnt realise how bad it was until i had Greta and i see how very differnt to him she is.  She is the one usually left to fend for herself while Miles is the one i have to carry around when we go outdoors or even around the hosue as he can't bear to be in a seperate room from me.. thank goodness Greta doesnt seem to have it either its bloody hardwork to deal with a child who cant bear to be seperated form you - not even so i can have a pe on the toilet haha he has to come with me and even sits on Jonathans knee while he is pooping if im not home as he cant handle having to stand on his own for the amount of time it takes J to poop!  Oh gosh its crazy - All my friends and family say they dont envy me as they see how demanding of time Miles is and how drained it makes me and even Greta too has she had the seperation anxiety but not the problem with growds, so i have to hold them both all the time - but you know what, he is SO worth all the trouble - he is such an amazing gentle, loving little sould id say i wouldnt change him but id like to make him less anxious so he feels happier himself.

x

ARGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Swimming was a disaster - so frustrating as he swims so well at home but just cos im sat at the side of the pool instead of in the pool wiht it he just screams and screams Mummy Mummy Mummy over and over and over and over and over and over.. ended up in tears and i just cant cope with his extreme clinginess anymore - th eswim teachers are so good its just so hard as he is such an intelligent little boy, so funny and fantastic swimmer yet because he cant speak in a group or in participate in swimming because im there everyone thinks he cant speak or is dumb or cant swim - but he CAN and its SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO incredibly frustrating i just cant handle it sometimes! SO many people come up to me and say 'Whats wrong with him" NOTHING he is just painfully clingy and clamps up in groups.. so frustrating! People say whats your name and he cant speak he just freezes so people look at me all sympathetic and think he is dumb and cant say his own name - it just gets me so down - he isnt stupid he can speak so well and i have the best conversations with him he simply cannot speak in a group and freezes and cannot function when he is seperated from me - even by a centremeter he cant cope - so instead his peers thing he is 'odd' and tend to ignore him and he is pushed out and no one plays with him because of it - and OMG it breaks my heart to watch all the other kids at swimming and playgroup and music class ignore him because he cannot join in and i see he wants too but he just cant - pretty much the same as me as a kid.. breaks my heart to see him going through the same as him - i get so sick of saying to people that there is NOTHING 'wrong' with him he is simply debilitated by extreme seperation anxiety and becomes frozen in group situations.. at home he can chat and sing songs and count to 50 and is starting to tell the time and is an amazing little swimmer and is so advanced in so many ways and well above average intelligence but once we leave the house he freezes and cannot speak or join in anything - so heartbreaking to see. I dont handle it well all the time, today i got so frustrated with it and burst into tears - i just see everyone thinking he cant swim or whatever actuvity we are doing but i know as soon as we are behind closed doors is fantastic! its just because of this debilitating thing he has inherited from me - and i really struggled at school because of it - almost passed out in class once i felt so ill but i just couldnt bring myself to raise my hand and say to the teacher i feel ill can i go to the nurse - so had to just sit there and feel ill all class its so sad when i remember it now.  I see Miles' peers ignoring him and not wanting to play with him as he is 'differnt' and it kills me.. so today i just burst into tears with it all and rang the health nurse for help - and of course couldnt speak becuase i was so sad and frustrated with it all - so anyway Jonathan had taken the day oof, was just meant to be a couple of hours but he saw what a state im in today and has taken off the entire day - bless him.  Anyway he spoke to the health nurse after i couldnt speak through the tears and she has referred us onto a Physc team in Hornsby - waiting on them calling us back with an appointment - honeslty i think ive spent all day in tears! i just feel so sorry him with his peers ignoring him and so frustrated that he cant speak or move even outside our 4 walls  - history repeating itself.. honestly some people should NEVER have kids i am one of them - feel SO SO SO SO bad that i have passed this hidious gene onto my lovely smart intelligent little boy - oh and there they tears go again!

x

Story time

I just had a share a couple of beautiful pictures - Miles and Greta sat on their mat in the playroom while Miles read a book to Greta while she drank her afternoon cup of milk - it was so so sweet

She's up!

Only a 2.5 hour nap this arvo haha - ok best go get her

x

2 out of 4 sick!

Jonathan and Greta are sick, Greta is well on the mend but Jonathan is feelign quite bad today bless him.. he called to say he would be home early - abotu 5.30pm which is early for my work-a-holic hubby!

Just Miles and I are well, although i woke with a bunged up nose but its eased as the day has gone on and i feel fine now. 

Not sure how Greta caught it as she is with my 24/7 so you'd think i would have given it to her - or Miles perhaps from his day care day on a Friday, but he doesnt have it - unless of course he has picked it up but is just the carrier and has passed it on to his little sister and not got sick with it himself!

Anyway she is having her nap at the moment and i suspect she will be well by tomorrow, jonathan on the other hand is not well :(

Anyway, a picture of Greta's new love:

She was previously obsessed with Miles' Woody doll, it got so bad we'd go out to the shops and she'd see one of them in the shops - toy Story toys are EVERYWHERE at the moment, and she would scream the shop down for it! Not easy explaining to a 1yr that her (Miles') Woody is safe and sound at home! Anyway she now has an obsession with the Teddy above, so thats okd, never seen another one in a shop so all good!

SO popped up the park today with the kids - Greta had a ball swinging with her brother on the swings

And then we came home and Greta went to bed for her 2nd nap of the day - she has been asleep for about 2.5 hours now. While Miles and i jumped in the pool for a swim :) it was only 27 degrees in the pool but was lovely once we were in.

Have scrubbed the kitchen also today and vacuumed the whole house as well as got down on my hands and knees to scrub the tiles on the floor in the kitchen and playroom - Gosh they looks so dirty all the time, i cant justify ripping them out though as they aren't cheap - damn!

Listed a few items on E-bay, Tupperware mainly.. having a good clear out.  Was going to list Greta's baby bath but i couldnt bring myself to sell it - silly i know. Miles' broke, i threw it over the deck of the old house when we had visitors so it looked neat in the kitchen and it broke - ooops!  So had to buy a new one for Greta and i cant bring myself to part with it - my parents still have the bath my sister and i had as babies! and that was almost 40 years ago they got that for my sister then i had it after her. My Dad uses it now as a place to put Koi carp to treat them haha cute!

SO waiting to hear back to see if i have a 2nd interview yet for a job i applied of - waiting... waiting... he said it would be this week and possibly today so we will see.

My sister rang to say she had bought miles a Timmy Time school house for Christmas, he is going to be SO excited he is Timmy Time OBSESSED! and a Tea Set for Greta which she will love i know.

Some of Miles' Timmy Time toys, he made a train out of it - bless!

So not meeting Fre this week as she is busy, having  a week like i had last week! But we are going out for dinner on Friday evening and then on for drinks, looking forward to that :)

Ok best start Dinner, salad and left over Chicken from last nights meal - Honey Mustard Chicken, yummm!
And see if Greta is awake.

1 more present down!

Several more to go... but im getting there - just popped up to Woolworths to buy a couple of bits to see us through till i do the big shop on Wednesday and ended up grabbing a shape sorter for Greta that i had been wanting to get her but was going to leave it till closer to christmas - although i know its only like 5.5 weeks away YIKES!  but im in blissfull denial haha!
Anyway they were down to the last one - its a great buy at $12 so decided to grab it in case they didn't get anymore stock before Christmas and i end up driving around all the Woolies in the area hunting one down and cursing myself that i didn't grab the last one in my local store when i saw it - so i grabbbed it.. just have to wrap it myself which i HATE doing - i pretty much either buy in gift shops that i know do gift wrapping like Myers or DJ's or i go to stores and see what i like then i go and buy the exact same item online and hit the 'wrap' button.. im lazy i know.. they also have the gold coin wrapping stalls in shopping malls but that dont do have those untill a week or 2 before Chirstmas and i really dont want to have to go there that close to Christmas. So just got to wrap it myself, but its just 1 pressie im sure i can cope!

So just a few little bits to get - doing a lot of the shopping online in the USA - much cheaper even with the postage on top. Ive also tolld my Mum in law what the kids would like but not sure if she will get around to buying them and i feel a bit bad about nagging her as that seems cheeky but i need to know if she is going to get them or not as i need to get them if she doesnt - ahh what a pest.

So i need to get this for Greta 9above)- and a few other little bits.. her big pressie will be a FP My first Dolls House :)

I've also had an idea for a couple of bits for Jonathan.. see i can find the things i want or not - he has mentioned a couple of things he'd like but me being me has totally forgotten!

Heading to the Movies to see the latest HP on thursday so in preperation i got myself the last 2 HP DV'D's so no doubt J will point blank refuse to watch them haha.. never mindhe can hang out in another room its not like we dont have plenty fo spare room in this house....!

x

Rain rain go away!

Well after a stinking hot week its piddled it down all day - which is kinda a relief after such a stinking hot week and weekend last week!

Of list of activities for this week:

monday - Music class
Tueaday - Free day (may meet up with Fre and the kids)
Wednesday - Swimming class and Playgroup - Author talk at the library - trying to find a babysitter but looks llike i have to take the kids with me - hope they are quiet as its adults only!
Thursday - free day (although we ususally go to the storey time at the library in the morning for Miles and baby bounce class in the afternoon for Greta) - Harry Potter at the Movies :) in Gold Class!
Friday - Miles'day care day and my cleaning day, just Greta and i home - Girls night out for me and a bunch of friends.. going for a Thai i think.. cannont WAIT!
Saturday - Taking Miles to the movies to see Dorothy Dinosaur and Santa.

Ok so thats whats on this week. Busy week again, but i like that.

SO went to Thomas the tank on Sunday - yesterday. Its such fun.  its $5 per ride per child so we bought a book of 4 rides and Miles and 2, Greta had 1 then they had 2 together.  It was SOOOOO hot but they had a ball.  We picked strawberries on the way up there and all 4 of us ate ahuge bag full on our drive there - its about an hour from our house..and its great fun.  Some of the drivers go slow but some go really fast around the track and through the tunnel  - which is great to cool us off on a hot day!

then home and we had a quick dip in the pool - Miles is getting so good.  He can easily swin the width of the pool, only problem is forgets to turn his head to breath so ends up having to hold his breath the whole way but swims to the wall at the other end of the pool and comes up with such  huge smile on his face, he just loves the water and swimming . We would be in our pool today if it weren't for the fact its raining buckets full today - the pool temp is 31 degrees though (its solar heated) but i dont fancy getting in there today with this rain.

So that was yesterday - came home and made a curry for dinner after our swim.


today

So far we have been to Miles' music class which he loves this week - i tell ya its mad, i can't tell if he is going to sit and stare at the floor and refuse to join in of if he is going to dance and sing and have a ball - well today was the latter, he danced adn jumped and even dressed up as a bee... i didnt even have to sit on the floor, i sat in a chair and he just went and joined in! SHOCK !!!! which is good as Greta is a like lightening she moves so fast and i have to keep going and bringing her back to where im sitting lol - bless her..  So i thought today that instead of miles suffering with his extreme seperation problems it was more that he wanted to join in for priase - whihc of course i lavished upon him.. every little dance or clap that he did he looked to me for priase and of course i said over and over how fantastic he was and he lapped it up - he does attention i admit that its just hisseperation issues that cause him troubles.. but not today - he had a ball! and perhaps learnt that he will get attention lavished upon him when he joins in and not so much when he sits in the corner and stares at the floor so hoping we are turning a corner but we will see on Wednesday when it comes to swim class time and i have to sit at the side of the pool rather than getting in with him - so frustrating as he can swim so well but just freezes in swim class because im not in the water with him and he cant handle the seperation.. so he misses out on having a proper swim class ashe gets so highly stressed and wont join in the class - but as ever im hopefull this week :) After such a fantastic music class today.

Greta was able to weight bare a little this morning, while i held her waist she pushed against my legs with hers., she can crawl and kneel but has 'looly legs' as the health nurse calls it and doesnt like to hold any weight on her legs - think she is just a bit lazy.. funny to think that Miles took his first steps at 13.5 months and started toddling around - and here is Greta 13.5 months tomorrow and can't even stand up or  cruise or hold any weight on her legs - oh well all kids are different i guess and its easier not having to run around after her anyway haha!

All for now.. best get the kids lunch.. although Gretais stll asleep from her mornign nap - was waiting till she woke up but Miles and i will have wasted away by that stage haha!

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Perfect Saturday

Had such a lovely day today.  Got up and headed straight for the pool - ahhh heaven, for an English girl growing up in a freezing country having a pool is somethign we used to save up for once a year and head off to Greece/Spain/Italy/turky or some warmer European destination for a 2 weeks holiday, and spend all day hanging out by the pool before we went back to good ol' freezing cold England and began saving up again for our summer holiday 12 months later!  But here i am in sizzling Auatralia and have my very own pool in my very own backyard! So now the holiday i/my parents worked hard to affored every year as a kid and 20 something year old i can now indulge myself every single day!! AMAZING!
Espically as my kids get to grow up with a pool in their backyard - very different to how Jonathan and i grew up.. hope the 2 of them grow up to know how lucky they are and not take it all for granted - well if they do i'll have to take them over to where J and i came from in the deepest darkest depths of winter, then they will be gratefull haha!

So spent all day in the pool with the kids, only got out to put Greta down for her naps. She LOVES the water, really enjoys it and when she gets bored we popped her on the side and she had a crawl about.  Miles stayed in the whole time and is getting really good at swimming bless him.

Then after that we had a BBQ dinner cooked by jonathan :D and i had a potter around the garden, cutting a few flowers to put in vases inside and checking on my veggie patch - a picture of a few strawberries i grew:

Oh and i was having a conversatoin wiht jonathan about he state of the draws/cupboards in the house - oh and when i say state i really mean anal obsession! haha..J thinks im anal i just think im ordered - a piccie of the inside of one of my kitchen drawers  - they are all pretty much like this *blush*

Yes anal i know!

Well much the same plnned for tomorrow i suspect - although we had talked about taking the kids to the Thomas the Tank ride which is about an hours drive but i can't be bothered to do to much in this heat!  So see if we go or not..im happy to hang round the pool all weekend - and it'll be cheaper.

Oh and just bought a ticket to see Harry Potter new movie on Thursday, booked myself in for Gold Class and Jonathan is going to stay home with the kids - although of course they'll be in bed.

Oh and i also bout tickets for Miles and I to go to Dorothy the Dinosaur and Santa on Saturday next week - j will watch Greta.. he says he's wanting more Daddy and Daughter time she is a little Mummy obsessed (which i of course jsut love :) ) but i know she needs to spend time with Daddy too without me hogging my lil'princess all the time - Miles is a little Mummy obsessed at the moment to though so i have them both with me all the time, which is lovely :)

Ok all for now.

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Really Really Really Love Sydney....

As the song goes!

Had a lovely day with the kids in Sydney today.  Mono-rail, park, picnin in Gloria Jeans! (i took them a packed lunch and bought myself a cuppa tea while the kids ate the sandwhiches id packed for them).  Running in the water fountians and a stoll along Darling Harbour - glorious!

Miles on the Mono-rail

Having a picnig in Gloria Jeans:

Darling Harbour:

Then we met jonathan for lunch and as suspected he went CRAZY about the cost of the dentist, i know he is stressed about money at the moment as we have just bought a new house then spent any exta $100k renovating on top of that and then i was made redundant while on maternity leave with Greta and have taken the past year off as i regreted going back to work after i had Miles so talked him into my taking a year off to be with the kids - which he thought was a great idea thankfully!  Then jonathan himself was made redundant! He found a new job thought at the same money but he used to get a $20k bonus every year and of course we relied on that and had fantastic holidays every year... well we have still been having fantastic holidays but of course we are $20k down  a year and didnt compensate ...so to sum up we have overspent big time and we are tight at the moment!
Anyway it was stupid of me to not manage the dentist costs better i know, i should have simply called the health insurance and find out how much credit we had left for dental and if they said we'd used it all up for this year i could have post-poned the last part or my root canal untill Jan - instead i get stuck with a $600 bill - YIKES!

Anyway we will sort it im sure.. just feeling a bit bad at the moment - and Jonathan is working late again.. no doubt trying to earn a bit extra money to pay my dental bills!

Dentist & Sydney

So i had my final part of my root canal today - major shock though as my health fund had paid most of it up to now but it has finally reached its limit which i didn't know so i got a huge $600 bill, i almost fell over!  Haven't told Jonathan yet, he is going to hit the roof - after buying a new house, me being made redundant from my job and doing more renovations than we planned on doing we are rather broke - big time!
Im putting off telling him as he is under lots of stress with work at the moment and trying to meet the bills each month - he is rather down in the dumps poor luv, so not looking forward to telling him.

On a brighter note i've promised the kids i will take them into Sydney today - we dropped Jonathan off at work last week one day and Miles just loved it, he was in awe of the big buildings and the mono-rail so i promised him id take him back this week - so heading there when Greta wakes up.

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Vietnam

So i had my interview today - met the guy in my local Gloria Jeans, he lives in Glenhaven also so we said we'd meet up there.. so that went well, see if i get a 2nd interview to mee the managing director. 

Its to take over from a lady who has held the role for 30 yrs! She is due to retire in June next yr and they want a part timer to take over 3 days a week and another part timer to do the other 2 days a week. but the 3 day a weeker (me) would be the supervisor.  its procurement and accounts payable so pretty much exactly what i do so would be perfect and its Northshore so perfect location too.. so very excited about it but there are so many people looking for work at the moment its hard - see how we go.

Vietnam

So Jonathan got a call from an agent who is looking for someone to take on a role of Project Manager building a hotel on a small island in Vietnam - it was something we talked about doing a couple years ago before i had Greta and Miles was a baby still ... but the job offer at the time fell through, well now out of the blue he receives this call about another role to build another hotel - exciting! Plus i ADORE Vietnam - we were lucky enough to travel the world for a few months about 7 yrs ago now and spent some time there and i just fell in love with it.  So see where this leads us - most likely will fall through like the last one but its something id be very keen on as we wouldn't be able to do it when the kids start school in 2yrs time.....watch this space!

A few pictures of Jonathan and i on our travels:

1.Me on a houseboat in India
2. Jonathan in a tunnel dug by the Vietcong in Vietnam
3.Me in the UK somewhere!

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