long overdue update

Miles starts pre-shool after the Easter berak - Term 2!  He will be going 1 day a week on a Friday.

He will have 2 friends there.  His little friend from Mums Group, who he has known since he was a few days old - and our lovely neighbours little boy, who i am a little nervous of as he tends to be a little rough with Miles, Miles is quite gentle - but im sure if he has any problems he will tell me.

So thats exciting.

On the job front for jonathan.

He was up for Director role in his current job - he was tipped as favourite to get the job, everyone but him thought he would get it!  His boss recommended him for it - which i thought was pretty good!
however he has heard on the grape vine that another person is front runner - bit of a political vote rather than best fit for the role - anyway still got to officially hear about that.

The job with the Anglican church, just 10 mins from out house fell through.  He went for all the tests, the medical, they did reference checks, thought they were just about to offer it to him and they said they had a change of heart and would not be offering it now.  I must say i am stoked about this as it was veyr bad career choice, but as it was 10 mons down the street and seemed an 'easy' role, Jonathan was keen.  i was worried it was a bit like a comfy slippers type of role and he was get comfy there and no one then in the corporate world would emply him again.  Although i totally get why he was keen - easy work, very close to home, rather than his current 1.25 hours commute into the city each day in rush hour traffic with an up hill battle most days - but very much the corporate world.. Anyway he said he was actually relieved to not get it as he would have taken it and it would have been a death sentance to his career - erm yep!

So next one was the BIG ONE! He got down to the final 2 at the end of last year / start of this year but they went with the other guy - totally gutted jonathan,, he was heart broken.. Well now we find out, the guy they took on wasn't up to the job and he has gone! So they called Jonathan for a 2nd interview on Tuesday of this week - he says it went well but they also have ANOTHER guy he us up against - erm deja vu anyone!!

So we will hopefully hear about that one later this week/next week.  If he doesnt get it this time then i guess its just not meant to be.. but its looking after properties all over SE Asia so is a LOT of travel which is what he loves..so i have EVERYTHING crossed.

Sickness:

Greta is on her 3rd cold of the year!  Poor luv, she had not a single illness for the first 17 months of her live - then i stick her in day care for 2.5 months while i work and its illness after illness.. poor luv.  Took her for her needles yesterday and got the GP to check her over, ears are clear, chest is clear, only clear runny nose not green, so i guess she is on the mend - finally!

I have the 3rd cold in as many weeks too!  Feeling blurrghhhhh.. Jonathan has also picked it up for the first time and has his first cold - not easy when working 50 hour weeks!
Only one to escape it is Miles who has had not a single sniffle or cough :)

SO yep Jonathan is working 50 hour weeks and has been for a couple months now - so we are all exhauseted.. he leaves the hosue at 7.30am and is home well after the kids have gone to bed around 8.30pm.. i leave his dinner out on a plate and he comes home, warms it through, eats it, then comes through and has a 20 or so minute chat to me then is so tired - as am i, one of us pops off to bed and thats about it.  He does see the kids for 30 mins or so eadh morning but never of an evening.. i hardly even see him.  SO im looking after them all day on my own, then feeding them and doing the bath and bed routine - cleaning up the house, sitting down to read a book or watch a bit of borning TV then jonathan comes home - 30 mins later one of us are in bed passed out and thats pretty much it! Poor Greta who has never been a huge Daddy fan has been clinging onto him in a morning and crying when he hands her over to me :( missing her Daddy.. only saving grace is that he is home all weekend. 
But we do need the money quite badly at the moment as we have major bills from the renos and our UK trip, so all the hours he can work will help..

So fingers crossed he gets one of these jobs, cos im not sure we can go on - would be so nice to have a relative who i can hand the kids/1 kid over to for an hours break, but we have no family here so its jut me.. if i do need a break my only option is to pay a babysitter.  But they are fantastic kids and i missed them so so much when i went to work so its not too bad - just 1 ngith off doing the bed routine every month or so would be nice.. or even just 20 min break...... 

Jonathan lets me have a lie in till 9am or so on a Saturday morning, but all i hear is Greta shouting Mummyyyyyyyy so i just end up getting up as i can't be behind a closed door when she wants me, so im getting run down - oh hum!

Other than that major winge!  i know i know, i need to get over myelf.. life is good.  Well bills are dragging us down - one thing we have NEVER argued about is money, but i think the working working working to death is getting to us both so we are becoming snappy... but really, if i had  a magic wand and i could get all my bills fixed up (well fast forward 2 yrs and we will be straight) but if i could get that sorted then i would be so so content... i love this house, i love being with my kids, i have a few, not many, but a few lovely lovely friends - just hard having no spare cash.. i mean we have lived so well for so long and travelled to some amazing places - more than once! Lizard Island (8 or 9 times for Jonathan), Ullaru and the fantastic resort there, New York, All over Europe, Aitutaki (amazing resort), Dunk Island, Bali, Frazer Island, Fiji, cook islands, India for 3 months, Thailand.. so i cant complain that im having to do it tough now and buckle down and live cheaply for a couple of years but really, we are such weaklings! we just can't cope!! We have lived the high life we need to pay for it now - why can i just not get my head around that!! WE have a gorgeous house to live in, in a gorgeous area - blooming expensive area! But still im sick of being broke, even with all that!!! Arghhhhh such a weak person!

Anyway will keep on trying to struggle on .. and try to think of the positive.  Trying to hang onto the hosue as it will go up and up in value and i do love living here.  Saw a gorgeous house around the corner from us, 5 acres, stunning house - oh listen to me!  a year ago id just have gone and bought it! But we are stuggling to afford this house, i so need a reality check!  Im not cut out for doing it tough - OMG DOING IT TOUGH listem to me.... in the house we live in, in this area, with the great places we have visited and i say doing it tough lol what a joke!!! Im just used to going and getting whatever i want when i want - hmm guess i get that from when i was a kid.  My parents always had a huge amout of disposable income so i asked for something and i got it - even if i didnt want it - hmm perhaps not such a great lesson to teach my kids, but here i am, on my own every day, in a lovely house, with fantastic kids, having lived a great no expense spared life up to now and struggling!!! ok get over yourself!

Oh and the Jeep, it comes to its 5year loan end in June - think we own 15k on it - so have to work out how we are going to come up with 15k in just under 2 months!

oh - hum.......

In other news...

Was heading to the library for story time but my little girl fell asleep,popped her in her cot while i ran around and got ready - and was chatting to her, next thing ZZZzzzzzz, yes my girl still loves to sleep! So we missed story time as i cant bring myelf to wake my princess - or my little prince for that matter.

There is another at 2pm so we will head to that one instead... and i need a new book for myself too.

We made some little doily angels, Miles annouced that "wow its a peacock" so i guess my artistic skills are pretty shot!

Hmmm been thinking a lot about doing a uni course in Social Work, something i have been keen on for years - but im 33yrs old, the thouught of going back to 'school' is not a fun thought!
Jonathan is keen for me to go but hmmmmmm, im scared.  What if i do a 4 yr course and find out i suck at it!  I have a friend who is a social worker and also Jonathan cousin and one loves it (his cousin - who works for Docs down on the south coast of NSW).  The other is my friend who says she would recommend i stay away from it - hmm so not sure.  Id love to do it.  I also have an interest in History - European, around the time of the 2 wars - a slight obsession actually lol, books all over the hosue about, History channel ALWAYS on/recording something... but i think its just a fascination and wouldnt be much good to study that as there aren't many jobs in Australia about the history or Europe lol!
So perhaps ill persue the Social work thing............. perhaps....

Greta is VERY keen to walk - finally at 18 months ! She is up and pushing her dolly pram baby walker. I also  stand near her and prop her against the couch and say walk to me, she tries so hard, but ends up falling over, so so cute.. but the fact she is very keen is fantastic.

Ok best get on, kitchen is a MESS and i put a plate in the dishwasher that had a little paint on after Miles had been painitng and of course the top dishwasher drawer has now dyed EVERYTHING bright red, so got to figure out how to clean that up without the need for a brand new dishwasher!

Oh and that trip to the library to collect my 2 books about the 2nd world war - can you say GEEK!

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